When I was feeling down from someone judging me and how I do not do my job well enough, I started feeling depressed. I was feeling depressed because In my mind, How can anyone say those things when I slave away working and giving my all?
Then I realized what was actually happening to me to me.I was getting affected because I put more importance in what others thought of me that what I thought about myself despite the fact that they were not true.
I then corrected my own attitude:
I do not need your approval. I appreciate it. But I do not need it. I do not need you to like me. I do not need to please anyone. Your assessment of me is not as important as how I assesss myself. I trust myself. You may think I am selfish and uncaring and inconsiderate but those are your thoughts and not mine. I know I do my best. If you think otherwise, that's your problem and not mine. I need to elevate my consciousness
If you are around people who are going around accepting or judging you based on what you are on the basis of what you did and did not do, then they are not the people who are going to be helping you elevate your level of consciousness.
Everything that we go through in our lives is a part of the perfection of this universe. It is what we need in order to advance ourselves into the spiritual path
I am now getting over these things that keep me from happiness. Once again I am alive. I am going back to source.
I did not give up. I was trying my best to recover so I can do my job.
I was judged with anger and hatred. But the critic knew not what he was saying. I am committed to my job.
Pass your judgement on to me. Presume you know so much better. But do what I have to do. Put up with what I have to, Do the best like I do. You might break down & get sick too.
So go ahead and verbalize your ignorance. Go ahead and satisfy your hatred, Your craving to look down on me. Think yourself all so mighty.
Carry your hatred Carry your doubts Weigh yourself down On less worthy grounds
You stand there Looking mighty and proud In your heart is anger In your mind is pride
I look at you from here But I see no greatness For all your grandeur is but a sham And all I see is sadness
Lies lies and you totally believe it Lies lies and you spread and preach it Live by it. Live In it
You actually believe what you think When your thoughts are constricted When your thoughts are all BUT love
How Can I love thee? Who pass such unworthy judgment on me? How can I love thee who treat me with such indignity?
Lord guide me to love Help me to humble my proud ego Teach me to be an instrument of your truth
Your body language is disgusting. Your body language says that you've given up. It seems like you are no longer 100 percent committed to your job. If you are not committed, then you should quit. I see a child. I see a Victim.Where is the adult that needs to stand up?
pinag huhusgahan ba naman ako ng kaibigan ni Luke na si Gordon. Heto nga at halos mamatay na ako sa kaka trabaho. May sakit ako - cough, colds and konting fever pero lumalaban parin sa trabaho imbes na mag OFF dahil walang pwedeng pumalit sa akin.. at heto ba naman ang mga pinag sasabi sa akin! Matagal na rin akong hindi nagagalit, ngayon ko nanaman naranasan!
Thursday Morning - February 1, 2007 Do you like my new fake nose? It's a part of a Halloween costume that never got worn last year. It also comes with a fake mustache.... yeah baby.. Isn't amazing how much a nose could change our features? Rhinoplasty anyone? If I had a bigger nose, would that mean I could breathe better?
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Friday Afternoon - February 9, 2007 The Kimberley Aquatic Center. It opened just recently and I am now going there when I can to swim. I have enrolled for a beginner's swimming lessons hoping I could learn some more skills to improve. I could swim but not very long. I see swimmers doing 30 laps and I just go crazy thinking how that can be possible. I only do 1 lap and I am exhausted. So hopefully by the end of the 12 session (30 minutes per session) swimming lessons my skills would have improved.
. . . Monday - February 12, 2007 By some accident, I deleted my old friendster blog when I was trying to reconstruct it. Friendsters was having problems with pictures failing to appear and my photos have been affected. Trying to repair that thing, I deleted by accident. I was pissed off for a while but I realized that I cannot undo what I have done. So I decided I might as well start a new design and now this current blog has come to reality. I reconstructed as much of what I had in the original blog as I can. How do you like it?
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Wednesday - February 14, 2007 I did this photo shoot for free for Joann's Boss. They needed a picture to place in an Ad in Calgary Newspapers. Lots of snow huh? Brrrrr . . . . . . . .
Saturday, Just past Midnight. February 17, 2007 Luke wanted to be brought in by ambulance to the hospital. He was having fever. He got discharged after a few hours.
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Saturday Evening - February 17, 2007 - 9:00 PM Marivic's Birthday Party at her home in Cranbrook. I had to go back to work by midnight. Was able to take some time off from 6:00 PM - 11:30 PM. At least I was able to spend some time with friends. Happy birthday Marivic we love you! . . . . . . . . Sunday early morning, February 18, 2007 at 4:00 AM Luke wanted to be brought to the hospital again. Spent lots of hours in the hospital lately. Hmmmm. Oh well, part of my job. This is the second time in a week.
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Sunday - February 18, 2007 at 9:00 AM
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Sunday Night - February 18, 2007 - Cranbrook, BC My day off started this afternoon. Ron, Myself & Helen visiting. Happy birthday Helen We love you remember that!
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Sunday Night - February 18, 2007 Joann & Maribel Chit chat..It was good to be with friends
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Monday Early Morning, February 19, 2007 at 1:50 AM
Just relaxing - chit chatting with Ron and Eric and Tim and drinking
beer and smoking my Marlboro (courtesy of Wilfred; who brought it to
Canada from Pinas from his recent trip). I needed the break. Good day
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Monday Early Morning, February 19, 2007 at 1:50 AM
Elko, BC, Canada - I think that was my 3rd beer. I don;t drink beer
that much anymore. Nor do i smoke as much as I used to . Maybe 4 sticks
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. Monday Afternoon - February 19, 2007. Here is my version of "Finding Nemo" - I just bought these swimming goggles for my swimming lessons and also to protect my eyes from the water. I didn't realize how clear I could see underwater with it. It was amazing! Totally changes the swimming experience. I am one step closer to becoming a fish . hahahahaha. I took this just before I headed back to work. That day
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